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& i am coming home to you with my own blood in my mouth

& i am coming home to you if it's the last thing that i do

Lewis Takes Action
Owen Pallett

i close my eyes, and spur imelda down the mountainside for a liberated spectrum

Monster Hospital
Metric

i fought the war, but the war won't stop, for the love of god, i fought the war but the war won

Every Planet We Reach is Dead
Gorillaz

i lost my leg like i lost my way, so no loose ends, nothing to see me down—how are we going to work this out?

Iron
Woodkid

from the dawn of time to the end of days, i will have to run away, i want to feel the pain and the bitter taste of the blood on my lips again

Jackrabbit
San Fermin

wanna live like an animal, by the skin of your teeth, put your good face on, not foolin' no one, you're a jackrabbit underneath

Only if For a Night
Florence + the Machine

and the only solution was to stand and fight, and and my body was bruised and i was set alight, but you came over me like some holy rite, and although i was burning, you're the only light

Sax Rohmer #1
The Mountain Goats

ships loose from their grins capsize and then they're gone, sailors with no captains watch a while and then move on, and an agent crests the shadows, and i head in her direction—all roads lead toward the same blocked intersection

In Our Bedroom After the War
Stars

we won, or we think we did; when you went away, you were just a kid, and if you lost it all, and you lost it

Younger
The Mountain Goats

storm right down that hill; if i don't, no one will follow me right through the chaos

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this is a catch-all feedback post! su fei is an oc, so critiquing her as compared to canon is, of course, probably not happening. that said, information that would be particularly useful to me includes:

✉️ how does su fei come across to you? this lets me compare it against my intentions!
✉️ is su fei's characterization consistent?
✉️ are my tags engaging? do i provide enough hooks? is the character interesting? am i giving you enough to work with?
✉️ is my portrayal of su fei's culture and/or disability respectful?
✉️ are you enjoying threading with her?

all comments are screened, anonymous commenting is enabled, ip logging is not!

Folkmore Application

★ Character Information ★

Character Name: Su Fei
Character Age: 27
Character Species: Human
Current Health: Alive. Down a leg, but that's just whatever at this point.
Outfit: Her favorite dress, though without the armor. The floral hair comb was a regain from the chest in her TDM threads. She'll also have her crutches, but not her wheelchair or prosthesis (they get much less use, anyway, so she'll be fine).

Character Canon: Original Character
Link to History: Her Toyhouse page should hopefully serve the same function as a wiki! Please ignore any mentions of Fire Emblem—she was originally designed for a tabletop campaign inspired by Fire Emblem (in a Fire Emblem Heroes/jamjar style, where each character was dragged in from a world of their own), but has been fully divorced from that franchise, beyond thematic inspirations, for Dreamwidth roleplaying purposes.
Canon Point: Years after the end of the war; by now, Su Fei has had a few years to adapt to her qilin and her courier service.
Canon Iteration: Original

★ Folkmore Roles & Attributes ★

Skills:
✉️ Combat, generally. Su Fei used an axe to fight for a very long time, and the war hasn't been fully taken out of the woman; she's rusty, but her instincts always remember violence. She can more or less hold her own unarmed as well. She does not have much practice fighting on crutches or astride a horse (qilin), but she was good enough at what she did for long enough (and is good enough at navigating the world on crutches or horseback) that she can adapt.
✉️ Basic medical skills. Don't ask her to treat your infection or deal with a poison, but she can identify how severe your wound is and patch it up accordingly—at least well enough to hold until a medic gets there.
✉️ Overall strength. Su Fei is built like a brick shithouse. She's so strong. Within regular human capabilities, sure, but she's so strong.
✉️ Horseback riding and flight. She's been getting around on qilin-back for a long time, and she's good at navigating the world around her from there.
Canon Abilities: n/a! Su Fei has no supernatural, psychic, magic, etc. powers.
Role: Legend
Role Qualities/Attributes: I probably am not going to go for any visual physical changes; I might experiment with changing eye colors but I don't wanna hard commit to keeping it until I get to play with it a little! Meanwhile, some of the less obvious features—strength, durability, pain tolerance, bravery—are things Su Fei already has in spades, so I'm interested in enhancing them a little further.
Role Reasoning: As discussed later in the app, Su Fei does not for a moment consider herself a good person. Her self-esteem is hot garbage. She tries, but doesn't feel like she'll ever overcome old instincts built over the course of the war, and her inherent leanings towards violence will always follow and haunt her. That said, trying to be good is important to Su Fei. Being cast in a role that very explicitly says, "you are a good person, you are a representation of the kind of goodness you've always striven for," is going to 1) give Su Fei something to aspire to, and 2) put some significant pressure on her! Su Fei is going to want so desperately to live up to the status she's been given, but just the fact that it's being asked of her is going to make it even more of a struggle to do so. I'm excited to play out Su Fei working to be the best she can but struggling under the weight of the belief that she simply can't.

★ Personality ★

What is the most important and defining relationship(s) in your character's life and why?
Though Su Fei made many important connections over the course of the war, the one that defines her life most strongly is, whether she realizes it or not, her relationship with Jian. He was an orphan taken in as a ward of the temple her father ran, and while they were close in age and essentially raised together, she did not see him as a sibling for most of their lives. Still, he was always important to her, and a childhood of telling his bullies to back down turned eventually into Su Fei choosing to follow him when he went to war. Had it been anyone else who went, Su Fei wouldn't have tagged along, but if gentle and skittish Jian could go, why couldn't she? Besides, she had protected him this long.

In the end, she failed, though: when she waved him past her to treat someone else, he walked right into an imperial trap on the battlefield and was burned alive. It was far from the first time Su Fei had seen death, but this one hit her the hardest. Jian felt like her responsibility in many ways, and she blamed herself for sending him away, for not being there, for not doing enough. This is arguably the foundation of much of her trauma and her ongoing need to take responsibility for everything going on around her. His death reshaped the way she looks at relationships as well: she never was brave enough, in her mind, to call him brother until it was too late. These days, she's more conscious of not taking connections for granted.

What does your character feel like they struggle with still? Where could they improve? This could be physically, mentally, emotionally, or otherwise.
HOO BOY. HOW MUCH TIME DO YOU HAVE.

The woman is out of the war, but the inverse isn't quite true. Su Fei's instincts tend towards violence; she is most comfortable with a weapon in her hands, and when something makes her jump, the first thing she wants to do is start swinging. If she encounters trouble, her first thought is always how she can fight her way out of it. She hates this part of herself. Su Fei wants so desperately to be good, and doesn't feel like she can be anymore, after so many years of fighting and killing. She wants to be kind, gentle, patient, and warm, but Su Fei considers herself irrevocably broken. In her mind, she is a soldier before she is anything else, and this cannot change, no matter how much she wants it to. She works hard to stifle those old war instincts and do good for those around her, but her self-esteem is all but nonexistent, and she cannot see it as enough.

Is your character capable of forgiveness or will they hold a grudge until they die? Would anything ever make them change their mind?
Su Fei wants to be the kind of person who forgives. Smaller slights generally don't register on her radar, and she's quick to set aside concerns over a mistake, even a less-than-honest one. More significant transgressions, though, are unlikely to go without comment, and more than once, Su Fei has said "it's okay" but maintained an uncharacteristically cold persona in someone else's presence.

For the most part, good deeds can counteract bad ones for her: if she has reason to believe you're reliable when the chips are down, she's likely to look past old incidents—you'll just have to prove it to her. Seeing others she's holding a grudge against take care of or protect those around them, or otherwise act brave or virtuously, makes Su Fei feel guilty, like she's being petty. There are some lines one cannot uncross in her mind, but they are few: think murder of innocents, tyranny, torture. Otherwise, Su Fei tries to forgive others, she's just not very good at it.

If you could give your character a Taylor Swift playlist, which songs would be on it and what would they represent about your character?
can i just say this is the only important part of an app i've ever done. i'm not even a swiftie at all i had to RESEARCH for this but character playlists are all i care about so this was fun

Anti-Hero // i should not be left to my own devices / they come with prices and vices / i end up in crisis / i wake up screaming from dreaming / one day i'll watch as you're leaving
A neat and tidy encapsulation of the way Su Fei perceives herself: as someone who is deeply flawed and incapable of being good, no matter how hard she tries; there is an inherent evil in her and it will destroy her someday.

The Archer // combat, i'm ready for combat / i say i don't want that but what if i do
There is, of course, an obvious hook for this one: Su Fei's instincts eternally returning to fighting and violence, whether she likes it or not. Similarly to Anti-Hero, this reflects a lot of her self-perception and the way she considers herself broken and irredeemable because of her past. Also the room is on fire, invisible smoke / and all of my heroes die all alone is just. Chef's kiss. What a line for someone who watched most of her war friends die in fights where the enemy utilized new fire technology!!

Peace // but i'm a fire and i'll keep your brittle heart warm / if your cascade, ocean wave blues come / all these people think love's for show / but I would die for you in secret / the devil's in the details, but you got a friend in me / would it be enough if i could never give you peace?
A choice specifically to highlight her relationship with Meili—they met during the war as comrades and ended up romantically involved. Su Fei lost her leg taking a blow intended for Meili. After the war ended, so did their relationship; a mutual decision based on the realization that now that they were trying to return to normal lives, they simply weren't much good for each other. Still, especially as the only surviving two left from their old group, they remain extremely close, with Su Fei even being the godmother of Meili's kids. They may not be able to give each other peace, a return to the lives they lived before, but their support for each other is unconditional.

★ Player Information ★

Player Name: Courtney
Pronouns: she/her
Are you over 18?: yes
Contact(s):

nidorina (preferred), Courtney#0069 on discord
Who Invited You?: AF
Current Characters: n/a
Permissions: Here
Writing Samples: Murdergame meme, Jamjar-setting PSL

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Su Fei

Age: 27	Gender: Cis Woman (she/her)	Sexuality: Lesbian

OOC Permissions ▐ Backtagging: generally fine, please just contact me first—depending on what's going on elsewhere in the game, i may want to handwave it/parts of it and/or start something new! stuff that's more slice-of-life-y or has been plotted ahead of time is almost always good to go though ▐ Thread Hopping: let me know first, if only so i don't miss the notification! ▐ Fully Off Limits: please do not discuss the following in threads with me: torture body horror (mild, goofy stuff is acceptable, but absolutely nothing painful—my line probably exists somewhere around that one steven universe episode if that's helpful; if it's not, feel free to ask!) spiders (with or without images) excessive gore images of bugs cannibalism in addition, i would prefer not to engage with the smuttier parts of folkmore; please avoid discussion about those events in threads with me! ▐ Please Warn For: child abuse and discussion thereof; i am not always capable of engaging with this subject, so ideally please contact me ooc before getting into it! please note this doesn't apply generally to children in peril, but specifically abuse (emotional, physical, neglectful, or otherwise) by parental figures. i would ask that you err on the side of being too cautious with this one! bigotry in general. i'm okay with discussion of queerphobia, racism, misogyny, etc., but would like a content warning. if you want to be bigoted at su fei, err on the side of contacting me first—with the exception that if a character is going to be casually ableist about su fei's disability, i'm okay with playing that out without pre-planning as long as it's warned for and you don't necessarily expect her to take it nicely lmao. to be clear, well-intended ignorance won't tank cr right out the gate!! but she's likely to be a li'l mean about it in return discussion of sexual assault

IC Permissions ▐ Physical Contact: totally fine! su fei is very jocular and is likely to initiate this sort of thing herself if your permissions allow it ▐ Mental Contact: go for it; she has no magical/psychic/etc., abilities herself, and therefore no blocks nor ability to sense this sort of thing ▐ Flirting & Affection: acceptable with similarly-aged characters. women may be flirted back with. men will be laughed at to their faces. ▐ Fighting: totally down for it, please just give me a heads up first ▐ Injury & Death: let's talk about it! ▐ Shipping: f/f only! in a game setting, if shit starts happening then shit starts happening, y'know. talk to me! i don't like planning out ships from absolutely nothing but if there's existing chemistry then i definitely want to talk about it. in memes, i generally don't want to ship with strangers, sorry! friends should talk to me first about assuming shippy cr with su fei on a meme thread. ▐ Smut: eeeeehhh probably not, and if it does happen it's definitely going fade-to-black

Content Warnings for Su Fei war, fighting, death, trauma. su fei was a soldier and did and saw a lot of killing! specific instances don't ever need to be discussed, though the general trauma around this is probably the hardest to avoid—because it informs so much of su fei's characterization, if it is a hard line for you, instead of a thing you can engage with if it's kept vague/warned for/only sometimes, opting out of threads with su fei might be for the best. i won't tell you how to live your life though fire. some of those aforementioned deaths were by immolation, and su fei herself was severely injured by a fire spell. she has severe burns on much of her lower body and is missing a leg because of those injuries. discussion of fire and/or burning can be avoided in threads with su fei, but the best i can do about her burn scars is keep from mentioning them explicitly. i obviously can't really get around mentioning the missing leg though alcohol. i would not go so far as to call su fei an alcoholic, but her relationship with drinking is noooot a particularly healthy one. she is not dependent on it, exactly, and it's very easy to just not discuss this or have her drink at all in threads

Opt Out if there are specific subjects you want to avoid when playing with su fei, or if you'd prefer not to play with her at all, please let me know here! all comments are screened and i will not ask for justification—at best, if you're looking to avoid specific subjects, i may ask for clarification to make sure i understand where the line is

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Credits

all icon art is credited on su fei's icon page

splash page art and photography:
- sunset photo by sp0ntaneous
- bloody knuckles by vc-arts
- mail photo by unovi
- muddy flower photo by sofia rachael
- su fei art by snepps
uncertain of source for blossoms in concrete photo + burning dandelion gif, sorry!!

ic inbox art and photography:
- flower lights by baoblaze
- post box by aeilias
- su fei art by riverhailed
uncertain of source for the letters or the pink roses, sorry!!

info page art: eluvusu

visuals art is credited on the visuals page by hovering over the image

codes are credited on the page on which they're used

Info Post

stats; Su Fei NAME 27 AGE she/her PRONOUNS human SPECIES 6'5"/195cm HEIGHT amazonian BUILD oc FANDOM
permissions; ooc yes, but please contact me BACKTAGGING contact me first so i don't miss the notif THREADHOPPING no FOURTH WALLING spiders, body horror, gore, torture, images of bugs. please warn for child abuse. OOC LIMITS ic su fei is pretty jocular and will likely take it in stride! PHYSICAL AFFECTION age-appropriately, yes. she might flirt back with women. men will be laughed at to their faces FLIRTING let's discuss it, but i'm open to it; su fei is a lesbian, so f/f only ROMANCE eeeehhh probably not; fade to black if it does happen SMUT let's discuss it, but i'm open to it FIGHTING let's discuss it, but i'm open to it INJURY/DEATH go for it MINDREADING full permissions
player; courtney NAME

nidorina ALT CONTACT

basic info;

Su Fei picked up an axe when she was young to keep the fires going during the winter her father injured his back, and never really put it back down; there was always work to be done, and she was ever eager to help. Raised full of love in humble means by her two fathers—a priest of the elemental sect of the three-branched church, and a tinkerer and craftsman—Su Fei lived quietly at the edge of the kingdom for a long time, dimly aware of the ruling empire's crimes but never entirely believing they would interfere with her quiet life, until they did. When revolutionary forces rose up against the empire's move to violently separate the church's sects, Su Fei took up her axe alongside them to protect her home and family. She spent some years as a soldier, dependable, but ashamed at how long she'd let herself live in ignorance. Despite the empire's best efforts, the revolution did succeed, but Su Fei couldn't be there for the final battle—an awful, fiery injury at the climax of the final push against the palace left her near dead, and while stubborn force of will over too much time left her alive, she lost a leg for her troubles.

The kingdom is still fresh out of their uprising, and there's much rebuilding to be done, but for now, the future seems hopeful. No one would have faulted Su Fei for returning completely to her quiet life—her higher-ups tried to encourage it, if anything—but she'd discovered a sense of responsibility somewhere along the way and couldn't let herself sit idly when there was work to be done, number of functional limbs be damned. Her qilin, Lairen, was imperial property, but without an empire to decide who does and doesn't get qilin steeds, it was decided that the least she could get in exchange for her troubles was a friend-shaped new way to get around. These days, she works with a courier service, primarily flying messages across the kingdom to regarding the rebuilding and restructuring efforts between new leadership and other important figures, but she's too soft-hearted to say no to bringing letters and packages to faraway friends, too.

Su Fei is generally calm and kind, cheerfully encouraging enthusiasm and playfully teasing those she likes—a big sisterly sort, if anything—and while she much prefers to solve problems without violence, if you absolutely insist that she solves the problem you're making by kicking your ass, she's gonna make you regret it. When you get her going, she gets really intense, and between this, her insistence on getting involved in Situations and Problems, how difficult she is to truly rattle, and her determination to do a thing called What She Wants, she very quickly becomes a force to be reckoned with when she sets her mind to something. Although the war hasn't quite been taken out of the woman, and she carries her losses and fear of her own capacity for violence more heavily than she prefers to let on, Su Fei really just wants to live a quiet life. She happily encourages those around her to be kind to those around them and do what makes them happy so people can live in peace together and make the most of their own lives, but her strong sense of right and wrong and vague feelings of atonement won't let her settle while there's still problems she can help fix.

impressions; visual notes

As noted, Su Fei is tall (6'5"/195cm), and built like a brick shithouse: this art probably best expresses her body type. Of course, one of the first things one is likely to notice about her when looking at her is that she's missing her right leg almost entirely. When her left leg is visible (which it often is, due to a preference for dresses and generally keeping her leg unimpeded), it has severe burn scars traveling up most it. A number of other scars litter Su Fei's body; most notably, there's a lightning burn Lichtenberg figure down her left arm from the shoulder, a wide scar that might have been an impressively messy stab wound at and going under her left collarbone, and short slashes over the left side of her nose and over her lips.

getting around

Whenever possible, Su Fei rides on the back of her qilin, Lairen, best pictured here. Of course, this isn't always an option; if she even has Lairen available, depending on the setting I'm playing her in, most indoor spaces are not particularly conductive to her presence. While Su Fei prefers her set of forearm crutches over a wheelchair, it becomes difficult for her to stand for too long due to lingering weakness in her remaining leg. If she's walking for a relatively short time or distance, she'll use her crutches to get there; if she expects to be out and about for a while and the terrain will allow it, she prefers a wheelchair with her crutches available in case she needs to get up. When riding Lairen, Su Fei keeps her crutches strapped against her saddle.

Su Fei does possess a prosthesis, but it's a very simply-made thing, and no one's managed to figure out how to get a well-working knee joint yet. It sometimes makes an appearance when she's using her wheelchair, so she can hobble back and forth from it without finagling her crutches, but she generally opts to go without.

Lairen

I'll type out some real information about Lairen later but as noted, she looks like this. She is, in fact, just a regular animal, lacking proper sapience, but she's got a big personality! Unfortunately, most of that personality is mean. She listens to everything Su Fei says, but is not actually a good service animal by modern standards, because she will eagerly try to bite anyone who pisses her off, which is most people.

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